Monday, January 24, 2011

Goal Weight

This is a dull post, but serves as more of a reminder to me. My goal weight is 53.5kg.
That means I need to lose about 10kgs.... that could be a 12 week challenge. Totally do-able and healthy, I think.

There will be more dharma and less dinner soon, I hope.

In other news, I think I have an idea for the book I want to write. Finally!

I Want To Be A Ballerina

I just went to see Black Swan. I've wanted to do ballet lessons for ages (I did a couple in Dubai and tried desperately to get my dancer friend in Cambodia to put on classes, but she didn't), but now I have a renewed interest. I've looked up classes in Bangkok, and I can't wait to start. I'm going to do ballet, pilates, yoga, running and swimming when I move out there.

Additionally, I am starting a new way of eating. Today I had a green smoothie for breakfast (spinach, tofu, mango and flaxseed), brazil nuts for a snack, a sweetcorn laksa for lunch and a choc slim shake for dinner. Also the rest of my pic 'n mix from the cinema. NO MORE CHOCOLATE from now on. I can't be trusted to have any.

Dinners are my hardest time for dieting, so I'm going to cut them out. Once I start, I can't seem to stop, whereas if I know I can't eat then I barely think about food. Sounds mental, I know.

So - project 'look like Natalie Portman in leggings' begins.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Working It Out

I think that in addition to a food blog, I am going to add a training schedule and weigh-ins to my blog too. I will have my first weigh-in on Tuesday. It helps to give me a bit of focus, and I really think exercise will help get my head in the right place, too.

My schedule this week will include:

Run 40 mins x 5
Swim 40 mins x 2
Yoga 40 mins x 7
Ab focus 20 mins
Arm focus 20 mins
Leg focus 20 mins

So - this is to be completed by the end of next Saturday 29th. Better get to it...!

Onwards and Upwards

It's been ages since I last blogged. In the time since I last wrote I have left Dubai, spent the summer in the UK, moved to Phnom Penh, left Phnom Penh, spent Christmas in the UK and am now preparing to move to Bangkok.

Also - I have been thinking about the man quite a lot, but I'm getting a bit bored of feeling sorry for myself and lusting after something that will never happen. I’ve been really reluctant to let go. It’s been hard because I am still in contact, but it doesn’t sense to me to cut ties with one of the best people I’ve ever met. So now is the time to get over it and move on. It's a shame, but at the same time It's exciting to reinvent my look, go on some dates with some beautiful boys and take my life off hold for the first time in a year.

This year is about progressing my career, spending time on myself and what I want to do (learn Spanish and ballet as well as getting fit and healthy).

Unfortunately the desire to drop some pounds is still very appealing. I go through periods of self-loathing, chocolate binges and fasting, but overall I am eating pretty well and working to adjust my relationship with food. I am an emotional eater and now that I have decided to move on, I hope that will kick start a more normal approach to eating. That is as dark as this blog will get, I promise. Otherwise, I am pretty happy and normal.

I thought that blogging my food and exercise would help me to see where I'm going wrong. I hope it won’t get tedious!

Today so far:
Large bowl of porridge with soya milk and flaxseed
Hot water and lemon
Detox tea