I think I have realised what the problem is. I'm indesicive all the time because I want everything to be incredible; my job, my holidays, my life in general.
Today I spoke to someone who has my dream life. She travels all over and gets paid handsomely for it by writing books and features. She is even married to a photographer, which obviously makes a great partnership for a journalist.
I don't think I'd be happy doing a job that wasn't the best job. So, I'd better get working on it.
Tomorrow I will dedicate to my dream life. Today I am too drunk to start.